Although it might have an impact, a BPD diagnosis doesn’t automatically make you a ‘bad friend’.
For years, I was convinced that I was undeserving of friends. It seemed like the only rational explanation for why I was so unusually adept at losing them. In every situation, I was the common denominator and therefore, I reasoned, I must be the problem.
I’ve found it difficult to maintain friendships since I was little. I’d want to be super close to people straight away and end up scaring them off. I’d want to prove what a good friend I was by putting myself out there to help them, and be considered a pushover or someone who could be taken advantage of. I’d invest too heavily in the wrong people and be heartbroken when the friendship didn’t work out.
I thought I was too weird, too emotional, too erratic, too much.
In reality, I was living with borderline personality disorder.
Borderline personality disorder (also known as emotionally unstable… Read the full story